“I think you naging coping mechanism ko nuon was just to be spending a lot of time with my friends. Because I needed some distraction. And I remember it was also during that time that I did a lot of partying, alam mo yung just to drown lang all the pain and just to forget. But then Karen, pagkagising mo the following day, masakit na nga ‘yung puso mo, masakit pa ‘yung ulo mo sa hangover…” Jodi laughingly shared.
“How did you deal with it? How did you change?” Karen asked.
“During that time ang nangyari, I think nagkataon din na nag sunud sunod yung projects na dumating. So nakahanap na naman ako ng distraction. May trabaho ako so hindi ko maiisip ‘yung mga bagay na mga nangyayari sa akin at home…” Jodi said.
Jodi also shared that it was not easy to overcome what happened but she was able to fix her relationship with her ex-husband.
“At first naman Karen, I wouldn’t say naman talaga na after the separation, ‘Sige na, let’s be friends.’ Walang ganun. Siyempre a heartbreak is a heartbreak. Parang you will have to go through all these feelings of grief and loss and it will never be easy.” Jodi shared.
“But I guess dadating ka sa time na maiisip mo, ano ba ang mas importante, ‘yung nararamdaman ko every day na ganito na punong puno ng anger and resentment ‘yung heart ko, or does my soul deserve peace? At that time also, naawa din talaga ako sa anak ko. Naipit talaga siya sa dalawang nag-uumpugang bato. And parang hindi na nga namin siya nabigyan ng pamilyang buo, iipitin pa ba namin siya sa gulo namin because hindi kami magkasundo?” Jodi added.
“How did you forgive him? Forgiveness is not easy.” Karen asked.
“It is not easy talaga and it does not come instantly. I think forgiveness is a choice that we have to make every single day. And also, we forgive because we were also forgiven… Kung paano ako pinatawad ng panginoon sa lahat ng mess na nagawa ko sa buhay ko, dapat we should forgive as the lord forgave us.” Jodi shared.
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