“I was always on time. I never missed a day of work and I just kept going. But as soon as the doors of my room closed, I was a different person. The thoughts, the doubt, the worry in my head were louder than the cheers. I had unhealthy coping habits. Plural. And I’ll say it straight up. I became anorexic. And I was self-harming. I was pulling my hair, a condition called trichotillomania. And in the four corners of my room I also abused alcohol.” Pia shared.
“I was deteriorating. I would just sit there dwelling in my pain, crying. I felt so alone. It was nothing like the people thought I had. I realized that all of the things that I didn’t address when I was younger came back to me in a big and harmful way. All my life my purpose was to please others, to fit in, to be the Miss Universe everybody wanted me to be. And so I kept it all to myself even though I was slowly deteriorating inside. Because I couldn’t imagine disappointing my country…”
“Imagine being celebrated as a strong, resilient, determined woman, but deep inside you’re going through that. I felt like a fraud…” Pia added.
Pia also shared how the Miss Universe Organization helped her. According to Pia, she underwent from multiple therapy sessions.
“I was determined to stay strong, to continue my mission, my purpose, and to turn things around. I wanted to face my demons and finally take care of my heart. Something I didn’t do or never cared to do…” Pia said.
(Photo source: Instagram – @piawurtzbach)
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